I have lost the ability to create
Posted: Sat Aug 10, 2013 12:31 pm
This topic is basically me trying to fight my inner demons. If you have any experiences go ahead and share.
Title says everything. I have lost the ability to mod. Everything that I try to create either doesn't satisfy me or I get bored of the project and jump to another one. This goes with modelling, texturing and mapping.
I've tried many tactics without any luck. Showing the progress to others (hence boosting self-esteem/pressuring you to finish the project), trying to keep projects short and simple, trying to get gameplay down first before adding any details, etc.
If I don't do anything I get depressed but when I do something, I have a timebomb counting down and saying "There's that one awesome game that would be awesome to make X for. You can finish this project after that."
I do not have any say when it comes to experience at those categories I listed, but I do have the required skill. Even though I have 2500+ hours in SDK I've only "released" two maps. The first map I ever created and some non-textured piece of shit.
It really makes me wonder what pushed me to release these maps. Was it the feeling of learning new skills?
I'm very jealous that you guys are even able to do something and make it all the way to the end. I know it's all self-discipline. I just cannot control it. Props to you guys. Maybe this isn't for me.
Title says everything. I have lost the ability to mod. Everything that I try to create either doesn't satisfy me or I get bored of the project and jump to another one. This goes with modelling, texturing and mapping.
I've tried many tactics without any luck. Showing the progress to others (hence boosting self-esteem/pressuring you to finish the project), trying to keep projects short and simple, trying to get gameplay down first before adding any details, etc.
If I don't do anything I get depressed but when I do something, I have a timebomb counting down and saying "There's that one awesome game that would be awesome to make X for. You can finish this project after that."
I do not have any say when it comes to experience at those categories I listed, but I do have the required skill. Even though I have 2500+ hours in SDK I've only "released" two maps. The first map I ever created and some non-textured piece of shit.
It really makes me wonder what pushed me to release these maps. Was it the feeling of learning new skills?
I'm very jealous that you guys are even able to do something and make it all the way to the end. I know it's all self-discipline. I just cannot control it. Props to you guys. Maybe this isn't for me.