May he rest in peace

[Dead-Inside]

I've thought of offing myself, but my thought of automatically going to hell for suicide keeps me from it.

LMFAO. I loath at you.

[Penney]

After reading that quick post of Jman's about going to hell for suicide, I wanted to reply with this:

I've "thought" of offing myself like a few of you (not for reasons you may think though), infact I still do but don't think I'll ever go threw with it, not because "I won't go to heaven" or "i'll end up in hell", but because what if there just isn't afterlife? just blackness, you don't keep your thoughts, you loose it ALL, everything. And that makes me not want to die, I enjoy having my sanity and thoughts and whatnot, more then i'll ever want to take a chance going black nonexistant world, but then again I'm not clinically depressed and even I could be wrong, there could be heaven, could be hell, but will it ever be 100% proven?

I'm sure theres things (probably a lot of things) in this world science can't prove or things that will never be able to be proven or whatever.

And I don't mean to rip on anyones beliefes, but this is just my own, of course. I'm just too skeptical to put faith into things anymore, not even humanity in general.

If I go any further I'll just be going way off topic.