Vilham wrote:From the OP it sounds like you went from one extreme to another. To have a good time you don't need to be going out and getting trashed every night, but you don't need to go from that to abstaining from anything. Sounds like you have an addictive personality/are easily persuaded, so instead of trying to fix those problems you just hid them away instead.
No, I don't have an addictive personality. I was starting to really go down a bad road with it. I wasn't merely going out and getting trashed. it was more like, drinking till your body rejects the toxins. Its easy to fall into the wrong crowd when you're young and it just took some to figure my shit out. I wasn't enjoying myself when drinking like that, and couldn't see the point in moderately drinking as I never really enjoyed the taste of alcohol.
And how is it hiding the problems? Lol. I confronted my issues with alchohol head on, by stopping and controlling myself. I wanted to regain control of my life because I could tell that if I carried on, I would be sending myself down a path I couldnt turn back from. But it's a much more complicated topic, regarding reasons to just go from drinking alot to not at all. The whole straight edge thing comes in there, which makes it a much broader subject in general for me and brings up many other reasons why I became edge and how I perceive those who drink/take drugs. Simply I wanted control of my mind/awareness when I went out, clean body/mind. Just respect myself a little and take care of myself better. I was into the sxe music long before I was edge, so it was a natural progression really.
To be honest, I don't find people around me smoking and drinking and getting baked a problem. I've been edge almost a year now and it's easy to tolerate as long as people respect my choice to not want to do that stuff. You'd think working as a bartender would be an impossible job, but I've never had problems before getting a job
I still go to clubs and bars, and look after my girlfriend if she decides she wants to drink that evening. I'm not sure why other people make a big deal out of someone not wanting to do that stuff. It's a big deal for me of course, it's my personal choice, and one I would like to uphold....but I dont understand why some people on here just can't accept that its what makes me happy and positive these days. It wasnt' pressure or forced...nor to fit in with a scene, just a personal choice.
I respect those who love to light up a joint and get wasted (alot of my friends do, I wont stop nor encourage them) it's free choice.
Plus I love the fucking music, so